abdicated
The worst part of being played for a fool is that this time, this second spin around this same damned barren planet, this repeated try at an infecund dream, was entirely my creation and thus my own cruel work. I want to be angry, but I can’t - just bleak and bored again, picking at the soft spot in this stupid heart which you probably never intended to really fill. I need to will learn from my mistakes, this time around.